I have spent a lot of time thinking about things that I can control and things that I cannot control, and it has not made me feel any better about anything. You know when you feel like you’ve finally established the difference between the two so now you can understand things better. You can work …
There is this passion that I desire but I am not allowed to have. I am not restricted to having it by any means, but the consequences of the past hold me back from exploring further than the limits that I have given myself. It is not that I do not want to reach the …
I don’t fully understand the depths of his emptions, maybe there aren’t even any emotions to begin with. Maybe I am just overthinking his affections for emotions that aren’t truly there. I don’t know what to think anymore. He shows me affection, intimate affection. It’s in the way he looks at me when we are …
We’ve been watching movies all day. Literally the whole day has been spent on this couch, switching positions, getting snacks or food, and bathroom breaks. Its 4pm and we’ve been on the same couch the whole day. I’m not complaining though, its been an amazing day to be honest. Just spending time together enjoying each …
There is this popular saying that ‘all that glitters is not gold’. As popular as the saying is the meaning quite simple, it means that looks can be deceiving. It means that you should be careful about the people you surround yourself with, the people you get into intimate relationships with, the people you work …
I have spent countless nights consumed in my thoughts of him. Of his teasing eyes that always linger on my skin and when our gazes meet the intensity of his look increases, entrapping me in a trance of pleasure. I wonder what his eyes would look in ecstasy. Would he close them? or would his …
I lay here in a puddle of my own blood watching the time go by and the life drain out of me. I did this to myself though. It wasn’t like I was attacked and left to die. I picked up that brand new knife that I bought just for this occasion, after much thought …
I don’t understand my feelings recently. I don’t even have the energy to feel. I know I’m numb, but everything just looks like broken glass. I’m fighting the need to feel sorry for myself but its getting really hard when things keep showing me my worthlessness. Everyone wants to fix me, but no one wants …
I hate it when I want to write and every thought I had suddenly vanishes. Okay they have returned, now let’s get to it. My mind has always been a constant rollercoaster of thoughts. Like how our hearts are constantly beating at all times so is my mind constantly thinking. Sometimes those thoughts align to …
November 9th, 2022 My hands shake as I write this because I am boiling with an uncomfortable amount of rage. Ironically, I am not angry, I am filled with every other emotion but anger. I cannot explain what I feel at this moment, but I will explain what got me here when I return. November …
