There is this passion that I desire but I am not allowed to have. I am not restricted to having it by any means, but the consequences of the past hold me back from exploring further than the limits that I have given myself. It is not that I do not want to reach the …
I don’t fully understand the depths of his emptions, maybe there aren’t even any emotions to begin with. Maybe I am just overthinking his affections for emotions that aren’t truly there. I don’t know what to think anymore. He shows me affection, intimate affection. It’s in the way he looks at me when we are …
There is this popular saying that ‘all that glitters is not gold’. As popular as the saying is the meaning quite simple, it means that looks can be deceiving. It means that you should be careful about the people you surround yourself with, the people you get into intimate relationships with, the people you work …
I don’t understand my feelings recently. I don’t even have the energy to feel. I know I’m numb, but everything just looks like broken glass. I’m fighting the need to feel sorry for myself but its getting really hard when things keep showing me my worthlessness. Everyone wants to fix me, but no one wants …
I hate it when I want to write and every thought I had suddenly vanishes. Okay they have returned, now let’s get to it. My mind has always been a constant rollercoaster of thoughts. Like how our hearts are constantly beating at all times so is my mind constantly thinking. Sometimes those thoughts align to …
November 9th, 2022 My hands shake as I write this because I am boiling with an uncomfortable amount of rage. Ironically, I am not angry, I am filled with every other emotion but anger. I cannot explain what I feel at this moment, but I will explain what got me here when I return. November …
You know the pain is different when the tears cannot even fall. You know you’ve cried enough when the tears can no longer come. Does that make it hurt less? Does that mean the pain is gone? The answer is no! For those that have gotten to this point its not hard to see that …
RAPE (OCT 14, 2022) That word that has scared so many and has been misused by a lot. A word that has destroyed so many lives, a word that has been made to seem more dirtier than it actually is. A word that has been marked with shame, lies, scorn, trauma, pain, anxiety, fear, abuse, …
The legendary phrase that may be true is also very false. First of all, no one is born an asshole, various experiences throughout life makes us become who we are. Secondly, why exactly are we generalizing the entire male species based on one mans mistake or a bunch of men’s mistakes. In lots of cases …
I can fear everything about a man but never the man himself. You’d think based on all my past experiences with the male species, both traumatic and otherwise, I’d be terrified of men. Unfortunately, that’s far, very much far from what I feel for them. As much as I’d love to discuss my trauma to …
