I can fear everything about a man but never the man himself. You’d think based on all my past experiences with the male species, both traumatic and otherwise, I’d be terrified of men. Unfortunately, that’s far, very much far from what I feel for them. As much as I’d love to discuss my trauma to further emphasize my point, I’m not quite ready to go that deep into my life history just yet. I’m not sure if and when I’d be able to, but I do know that it takes time to get to know a person. I would like to say that my feelings for the male species is one of attraction and curiosity. I like men regardless of anything.
We can go around circles saying all the things wrong with the male species but let us not forget that we are far from perfection ourselves and a lot of the things we criticize them for we are also guilty of those things so let’s stop being biased hypocrites. Anyways, back to wherever I was going with this, what I’m saying is that no matter the evil that lurks in a person and their actions, the only thing that may arouse fear in me is the capability of the person but never the person themself. For me as a person ‘fear’ is not an easy emotion to provoke in me so being afraid of a person is not a concept that dwells in me.
They concept of my ideology is simple, every single person on this earth has the capacity and capability to either be a model citizen or a murderer. You get to choose what exactly you want to be; we can say that our life experiences makes us who we are, but no one is capable of making your hand pull a trigger except you. At the end of the day, after all is said and done it is very much your decision. A gun to the head can only provokes you to make a decision that you wouldn’t ordinarily make but its still your choice whatever you decide to do. My reasoning is that your actions are based on circumstances, meaning that if a situation were to happen more than once in your life you are more likely to make a different decision each time than constantly repeating the same decision at each circumstance, more to test the waters than because you are sure of your choice. So, in a circumstance where you decided to do something wrong and I witness that, that doesn’t automatically make you a bad person to me. It just means that you made a bad decision at a bad time like everyone else does at any point in their life. That is different though when someone who is ‘bad’ does something bad, it does not stop that fact that it is very possible for the person to do something good.
The factor of a person doing something traumatic to me does not cause me to be afraid of this person, it makes me cautious of what exactly they are capable of and how far they can possibly go but never that persons themselves. Why? Because as much as your characteristics are horrifying, you are not incapable of doing good either, and at the end of the day you are human and a bullet to the heart or any vital organ can kill you just like it can kill me.
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