I think I dodged a serious bullet by not being the first child, but that doesn’t stop the standards and expectations. It doesn’t stop the comparison from the moment parents see any difference that strays away from what they originally want from you or have seen from your older sibling. I’m not sure what it …
The day the scales feel from my eyes was the day I saw myself. I was busy chasing shadows while being barely noticed. I saw myself the way he saw me. Available, ever ready, forgiving, accepting, tolerant, naïve, easy and maybe even easy to manipulate. I don’t know how I missed it before, in fact …
What the fuck am I doing? What the fuck am I actually doing?? I’ve had this thought going through my head over and over again. ‘I’m doing it for the plot’ ‘I need some spice in my life’ ‘let me just indulge this one time’ but at this point I’m not seeing the point. Then …
It is better to walk away from what could have been than to deny the of reality of what is. I have understood from experience, both mine and others, that to fall for potential is a regrettable decision. What I am learning now is that it is just hard, hard to know that someone or something …
It’s just easy to wish to have something that isn’t yours. To admire the ones that have it, wish to be them, envy them even. But no one ever understands the responsibility of having those things than the one who has it. Imagination is often far different from reality. I think that’s one of the …
This is when you unconsciously or consciously act against your own goals, creating obstacles through behaviors like procrastination, perfectionism, self-medication or negative self-talk, often rooted in fear of failure, low self-esteem, or past trauma, and it can be overcome by increasing self-awareness and addressing underlying beliefs. Felt the need to define the word, according to …
I guess this is it again isn’t it. Why am I surprised? Am I even surprised? You’ve done this before. Ignored my texts and calls. It’s been days and I haven’t heard from you. First it started with mild irritation, to anger, then concern, now it’s just hurt. You’re hurting me again. Is this going …
It would be so easy to fall in love with you again. To close my eyes and melt into your warm embrace. It would be so easy to full back into the rhythm of things between us. To hold your hand, kiss your lips, fuck you deep. To go back to the way it used …
I honestly don’t know what to say. The whole year felt like living in a simulation, like I wasn’t living my life but watching someone else’s. I don’t know how to explain it but I guess I sort of have to in a way. It felt like living the same day over and over again …
How much is too much? According to the Internet, attraction is a powerful force drawing things or people together, encompassing physical (like gravity or magnetism), personal (a person’s charm, appeal, or interest in another). And perversion refers to behavior, attitude, or actions that deviate significantly from accepted societal, moral, or sexual norms, often interpreted as …
