I honestly don’t know what to say. The whole year felt like living in a simulation, like I wasn’t living my life but watching someone else’s. I don’t know how to explain it but I guess I sort of have to in a way.
It felt like living the same day over and over again for most of the 356 days of the year, except for minor differences. I just felt stuck but nevertheless I like to end the year on a thankful note even if I’m not happy with how a lot of things turned out, at least I got to see the whole year in one piece even if I wish sometimes I didn’t.
I’m grateful for all the concerts that I went throughout the year. I’m thankful for how much better I got at my hobby. I did read a lot less this year, my mental was off, so my reading took a serious blow. This is the lowest number of books I’ve read in a year, since I started reading again in 2022. The amount is 26 books, I’m ashamed. For some this might be a lot but for a seasoned fast reader like me, this is highly disappointing. Especially after finishing 84 books in 2024. Hopefully I do better in this year.
I moved to a different city, even if the decision was made for me, it needed to happen. Its much smaller than the place I was before but it’s a lot better in many ways and I’m grateful for the change because even if it wasn’t made willingly, it was necessary.
I also attended some very fun events so I’m exceptionally grateful for that. I’m grateful for all the self-care appointments I was able to go to and afford. I’m grateful for the food I had to eat and the opportunity to afford the things that I needed. I’m grateful that I got to see the whole year. I’m grateful for good health and good company. I’m grateful for all the friends I gained and lost.
I’m grateful for all the things that went wrong this year, the ones that went wrong to protect me and the ones that went wrong so something right could come. I’m also grateful for the things that I don’t know why they went wrong. I’m grateful for family, the ones related to me by blood and the ones I chose.
I’m grateful for where I am now, even though its not where I wish I’d be its better than where I was yesterday and I know my tomorrow will be so much better. I’m just grateful to God for everything, the ones I know about and the ones that I don’t. everything is working together for my good and I know He got me.
Can’t wait to see what the new year brings. I’m sure yours will be more amazing than it was last year.