A lot of people have so many things they wish to say to me. Deep thoughts they wish to share, feelings they wish to pour out, insults they want to spew, comment they’d like to make, compliments they want to give, and much more words of either love or hate but they won’t say it till I’m dead. I’m sure the hateful things are said in gossip groups but the what about the love? They are buried deep within themselves. Why do we wait till the very last minute to do or say things that should have been said from the very beginning?
One reason I’ve come to know is fear of the unknown. That is mans greatest problem, that’s fear of what if’s. They can’t predict it so they fear it. They can’t understand it so they chase is away. Why not give it a try and see what happens. If it works out then okay that’s great. If it doesn’t then at least you know you tried and that imaginary what if that will haunt you for the rest of your life won’t be in existence.
You keep things that would have changed my life away from me because of your own fears and when I’m no longer here you punish yourself with the guilt of what if’s. What good would that do? Waste of valuable time and energy that’s what that is. The time you’ll spend on what if’s could have been used to achieve something great but you waste it away because your not so sure how things will turn out. All I have to say is shame on you!!
I’m at that stage in my life were I say fuck it all and I go for it. If it fucks me up then at least I won’t spend the rest of my life in self loathing of what if I had or hadn’t done. And then if it doesn’t then I have achieved something.
Don’t wait till I’m dead because then it wouldn’t matter anyway whatever the fucking hell it is that you have to say. My dead ass body won’t give a fuck what you gotta say and neither would my cold ass coffin. So on the day of my funeral make sure you keep your excuses and unsaid words to your fucking self because it’s too late and I really no longer give a fuck to care, obviously I’m too dead to anyway.
This isn’t only about me though. Whatever it is that you want to do or say in your own life just do it. Don’t kill yourselves with what if’s. Life’s to short anyway why waste in guiltful wonder. I hope you learnt something and I hope you take that leap of faith. Don’t do anything crazy stupid just do you. By the way stay safe and don’t get killed!