I found myself constantly wanting. Subconsciously and consciously trying to strengthen bonds that were never meant to exist in the first place. I continue to fight battles that are not mine and still wonder why I lose. I’m not blind, neither am I deaf. I can see the signs, hear the lies but yet I …
I know the person that you are. I know the desires that you have. I know your thoughts and intentions towards me. I know what you see when you look at me. I know what you want from me. I know how much you want me. How much you desire me. I know the things …
Another day to stare at the blank ceiling, another day to watch the day go by and the night come. Another day to question reality. Another day to waste my existence. Another day to drain the life within me. Another day closer to my death. Another day to wonder. Another day to consider the possibility …
Today was such a good day. I slept early last night and woke up early. It felt good to do something different. I did my social media run and then I saw a post on Instagram that touched me differently. Photo that inspired this that I claim no right over I didn’t want to think …
I don’t think I’ve never talked about relationships and dating, and stuff like that on here but I think I should. Not today though. As usual life has brought another lesson to my doorstep. It wasn’t one that I am unfamiliar with, but it wasn’t something I particularly noticed. It’s just something that has happened …
I think for the first time in a long time I am being haunted by the memories of a lover. For a long time, I have thought that something was wrong with me. I have thought that I may have incurred an incurable disease that makes me unable to feel pleasure. I could achieve it …
GRIEF I have never lost someone to the hands of death before, more so to the hands of life. I have lost people to the circle of life. To people choosing to leave my life for whatever reason or for the circumstances of life drifting us apart. In particular I have noticed certain patterns that …
Once upon a time, I slept and woke to an empty bed. I wasn’t surprised though; I had every right to be alone. It wasn’t like I had committed an abominable crime though, but I had hurt him in a much worse way. We were seated on the living room sofa, having just finished watching …
I have thought about it, asked about it, felt it and experienced it enough to know that I am worthless. I am a useless piece of furniture that constantly gets repossessed but never retained. It can be said to be a good thing to always be wanted but what’s the point if you are never …
I have been abandoned. I have been rejected. I have been ignored. I have been pushed aside. I have been used. I have been misjudged. I have been taken advantage of. I have been lied to. I have been abused. I have been taken for granted. I have been torn apart. I have been hurt. …
