You call, he doesn’t answer. You text, he doesn’t reply. You are always there for him; he’s never there for you. You give him full parts of yourself, he gives you pieces of crumbs of who he is. He says one thing but does another.
You deserve so much more than this. You know it and even he knows it that’s why he treats you like this cause he knows even if you deserve better, you are willing to tolerate less.
He will not become the man you want him to be until he decides that that is who he wants to be. He won’t make that decision and you know it. You cannot change him. You cannot make him love you the way you love him. You cannot convince him that you are who he wants if he cannot see it for himself. He’s not a baby; he’s a grown adult and that means he’s very aware of what he is doing and he also knows what he wants and its certainly not you.
You are a beautiful lady. You may not know where you’re going, who you want to be or what you’re doing, but those things don’t change the fact that you are an amazing individual. Everyone that meets you can attest to that awesomeness.
The fact is that you don’t have to know those things just yet because your path is yours alone. No matter what is happening around you, it doesn’t change the fact that you are moving at the pace you need to for the phase of life that you are in.
People have the power to use and abuse you only if you give them that right. He’s only hurting you because you allow him to. You give him privileges he has no right to have. He doesn’t even deserve the amount of access he has to you. In fact, he shouldn’t have any access to you at all. Its either he wants you for keeps or at not at all.
You are waiting for that shove from him so you can completely lock him out and I get it. I just hope its more of a shove than anything he can do. Your internal voice should be louder than anyone else’s because you are the only one that matters most and will never leave.