When you do not notice my absence how would you ever understand the importance to my presence? How would you even know whether I’m here or not? You do not see me. You are blind to my existence. Even when I’m right in front of you begging you too notice me you still don’t see me.
I don’t know what I can do to get your attention anymore. I have tried all that I possibly could to make you see me but you still don’t. Some will say that I should try harder but I’m tired.
I’m worn out and exhausted from all my wasted efforts. You are not the only person in the world but there isn’t anyone else like you. I have gotten to the point in my life that I’m asking myself if you are really worth the trouble. If I’m not worth someone fighting for me, I know I am. I want to find someone that will see me. Its very obvious to me that its not you.
I’m going to move on now cause I am tired of this pain of invisibility. I’m going to search for someone who will see me. The person will never be you and I’ve come to accept that. I don’t want you anymore. A part of me always will crave you but I won’t let it consume me anymore. I’m done.
The person could be better or worse but either way I have learnt my lesson and I will never let anyone treat me lesser than what I know I’m worth. Invisibility will never blind me again. I’m better than that now and I deserve better.
No one understands pain as much as those who feel it. Our stories are all different, some are similar, some are better or worse than others. In a rare case like you both suffered the loss of a parent due to cancer. Only the both of you understand what that feels like and also others that have gone through the same situation. The only difference is how each of us decide to deal with it and who we become after. No one understands pain as much as those who feel it.