I don’t consider my behaviour to be unusual, at least not in the beginning. I considered it as a mild curiosity, usually how it starts isn’t it. You see something that interest you and it causes you to be curious. You would want to know something’s about it at first, then the more you know …
I can’t exactly explain myself in the way that feels sane, especially after the things that happened to me the last time. I don’t think there is even a possible same manner to describe my behaviour after such a traumatic experience. It’s been weeks, months even since I invited my nightmare into my home and …
In this large planet we live in there’s so much to explore. So many beautiful and interesting places. So many experiences and new activities to enjoy. Numerous adventures abound so much so that it is almost impossible to say you’ve done it all or experienced it all. Because even as you experience some more are …
Another wasteful sexual encounter. At this point I should just give it all up and become a nun. Finally just give up all this baseless sexcapades. All talk and no fucking work. I don’t know which one was worse this one or the last one. The worst part? They all keep grinning like toddlers that …
You call, he doesn’t answer. You text, he doesn’t reply. You are always there for him; he’s never there for you. You give him full parts of yourself, he gives you pieces of crumbs of who he is. He says one thing but does another. You deserve so much more than this. You know it …
ME (17TH NOVEMBER 2024) I’ve been doing some self-reflection lately and it made me notice certain things, both in the general concept and about myself as a person. One of those things is that we are a very biased species especially when it comes to our personal beliefs about ourselves. When we believe we are a …
Another year has gone by and for the most part I can’t remember most of it, but I’d like to end the year with a heart of gratitude. I don’t know how to classify a whole year in one box because I don’t feel that’s how life should be or is. What I will say is …
I have become the thing that I despise. I don’t know how it happened, neither do I know when, but I have become the thing that I have long detested. Maybe this is because of all the effects of the past chipping at my heart till it lost its form. Maybe its as defence mechanism, …
I’ve tasted him and I want more, I’m a greedy bitch! There’s this saying that you don’t know what you’re missing till you’ve tried it. You don’t know how sweet and addictive ice cream is till you’ve tested it, and my is it addictive. I have lived a life without the knowledge of the hunger …
It’s been so long since I’ve been held the way you held me. So tenderly. It wasn’t sexual, but it was filled with so much affection. Like you wanted me. It felt so good to be wanted. Of course, I’ve been wanted by others, but you were different. Everything about those moments were so different. …
