In this large planet we live in there’s so much to explore. So many beautiful and interesting places. So many experiences and new activities to enjoy. Numerous adventures abound so much so that it is almost impossible to say you’ve done it all or experienced it all. Because even as you experience some more are still being created. But nothing on this earth compares to this woman that has captured my heart and soul.
I’ve been in love before, but it dims in comparison to everything that I feel for her. I don’t even think love is a strong enough word to describe what I feel. Nothing brightens my day like seeing her beautiful face. I get this burst of happiness whenever she walks through a door. The smile she gives me whenever our eyes meet makes my heart stop for a minute.
I could go on and on about her physical features because her body is too goddess-like not to worship. I enjoy watching her get ready for the day. The sight of her lotioning her body, watching her hands rub herself all over is truly a captivating sight. Her standing in the closet contemplating what she wants to wear for the day is so cute as her face makes that adorable frown in concentration, gets me every time.
Then her styling her braids or wigs with the same look of concentration. I just love watching her in her element. She always thinks I just like to waste time when I’m just lounging around in our bedroom while she gets ready but I’m simply enjoying the sight of her.
Date nights are my favourites, sometimes she lets me watch her, other times she chases me out so she can surprise me with the final look. And every time she walks down those stairs looking like the goddess that she is I always contemplate carrying her back upstairs so I can have my way with her, very few times dose she cave when I ask if we should just stay home instead. I’m stuck between keeping her hidden or showing her off to the world. I do both. I’m greedy like that.
All I wants to do is spoil her silly and love her with everything that I am. I can’t even lie; I enjoy the envy and awe that follows us whenever I take her out. It boosts my ego so much knowing that I am the man that gets to be by her side the entire event and more so I get to take her home with me. She sleeps in my arms on our bed. She kisses and touches only me. Her eyes look at me with so much intensity that if feels like we are in our own world altogether.
Her smiles and laughter are my daily goals, and I always achieve them even without trying because I know she’s as happy to see me as I am to see her by the way her face lights up at the sight of me, but that doesn’t stop me from putting the extra effort. All I want to do it hold her and never let go. If feels better when she sinks into me like she wants to get into my skin, because no matter how close we are its never close enough. Even naked, tangled up with each other I still need more closeness to her. Its scary but also liberating.
Sometimes I feel like I love her too much and she might leave me because of it. It terrifies me, the thought of her leaving. Even worse is the thought of her finding someone else. I know I don’t deserve her, but I’ll be dammed if I let another man have her. She’s mine! What really scares me is the thought of me hurting her. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I ever did anything to cause her pain. I’d rather put a bullet in my head than be the cause of her pain.
I’m not even going to delude myself and say that I haven’t done things or made mistakes that have caused her pain but that is how I know how much it kills me to be the reason she feels any level of discomfort. Her happiness is my priority. This is why I’ve made a conscious effort to do better and be better for her. Anything that profits her always profits me do it’s basically a win-win.
She’s so sexy when she’s angry though. I don’t like upsetting her, but I prefer anger to hurt. I rather her want to punch me than for her to look at me like I just broke her heart. I do prefer if her anger is directed at other though. Pain by anyone, including me is unacceptable and I will do anything possible to bring that heart stopping smile back to her beautiful face.
Every time she says ‘I love you’ my heart falls more in love with her and grows in size, just for her. Only ever for her.
My world revolves around her and I would gladly do anything to make her happy. She brings me so much peace and happiness and all I want is to triple it and give it back to her. She’s my everything as I am hers. I just hope she knows this until the day I die.