I hope all this shit was worth it. I hope you enjoyed every single moment. I hope you achieved your purpose. I’m not going to say that I didn’t want us to last, cause I did. Neither am i going to say that I didn’t know that this was all a game to you, cause I did. Nor am I not going to pretend that I didn’t know you were lying to me most of the time, cause I did. I’m not going to deceive myself that i didn’t know that you never loved me and all the ‘I love you’s’ were a bunch of lies, cause I did.
I knew exactly what you were doing. I was well aware of all the lies you told me, but I let myself fall for them. I knew that it is was all a game to you but what I don’t still understand was why the hell I let myself fall for you. I knew you were lying but I believed you anyway. I wasn’t expecting you to change, neither was I planning on changing you. I just hoped that you would stop playing games and actually realise that we could be happy together. But that didn’t matter to you did it, all you cared about was playing this sick stupid game of yours and bloody winning. Well, you won. I hope your happy.
You broke me. You hurt me. You wrecked me. So thank you. Thats all I have to say to you. I won’t cry over you. I won’t miss you. I won’t even hate you. I won’t plan vengeance upon you either. I’m going to pick myself up and dust away the left off traces of you in my life. I will move forward and find someone else to love. No matter how many times I get hurt and how many people that hurt me, I will always continue to love unconditionally. I won’t let you or anyone else hold me down and destroy me. Break my heart a thousand times and I’ll fix it ten thousand times over, coming back stronger and better. You may be my first heartbreak and I’m not sure you’ll be my last. The one thing I know I won’t ever let happen to me again is to let anyone play games with me. I’m much too intelligent for that.