Pain

He looks at her with adoration and love but treats me with hatred and disgust. He smiles in my absence but scowls at my presence. He complains of my negligence but never appreciates my attentiveness. He never calls or texts, never bothers to know if I’m living or dead. He hates my clinginess but despises

A chance…

A simple choice to say yes or no could build a nation or destroy it. In life, we make choices every single day of our existence. The clothes we wear, the food we eat, when we laugh or cry, places we go to, people we talk to, all these choices that we keep making everyday

Her? She? D

A very funny human fact is that you never see flaws of the person you love until that person hurts you. Then the things you never really paid attention to begin to unfold. You begin to realize that that person wasn’t perfect to begin with. The perfections you saw were there but they weren’t completely

I wish

I wish you could see the sadness in my eyes, because only you could take it away. The sadness I feel in your absence right now could probably kill me faster than a gun shot straight to my heart. I’m not to keep lying to myself that I don’t love you, when I know that

I can’t take it anymore

Why do you choose to play with my feelings even though you know that I love you? Why do you pull me close in you weakness and push me away in your strength? Why do you tell me you love me when you know deep down that you don’t? Why do you get my hopes

She loves him too

He couldn’t believe that the woman that was feared by every single person in the whole country was the woman that loved him. She sleeps on his bed and in his arms all night. He wakes up to her sleeping form everyday. He has seen her in ways that no one else could ever believe

Her? She? C

When you do not notice my absence how would you ever understand the importance to my presence? How would you even know whether I’m here or not? You do not see me. You are blind to my existence. Even when I’m right in front of you begging you too notice me you still don’t see

I’m sorry

I’m sorry for caring cause I knew you never did. I’m sorry for all the inappropriately heartfelt text messages and calls. I’m sorry if I was coming on too strong. I’m sorry that I acted based on how I felt without thinking about how you felt. I’m sorry for not reading the little signs of

Is this how men feel?

Are men insecure about their feelings? Does she care about me? Does she thing of me? Does she love me as much as I love her? Does she even love me at all? Do I even matter to her? Am I just a necessity? What is she doing right now? What is she wearing? Did

Mine

As I arrived home from work, quite late and completely exhausted I saw her seated at the dining table working her ass off. Then I checked the time again and saw that it was 2:30am. I’m very sure she hasn’t slept at all through out the nigh and I’m sure she’s not planning on sleeping